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"Tis been so looong... since I've seeen your face... so long since I've been to first baase...". Reference to the cool never-gonna-not-be-cool boyband that is 2Ge+her. I remember I used to love them.
Anyway..
It's crazy. I'm almost graduating college - never thought I'd see the day!! And now that it's here...... I'm kinda sad. I kinda wanna purposely flunk out for three semesters in a row (only three though, 'cause then I'd be stuck with people I don't really know and I surely don't want that!) and just stay a little bit longer.
People often say that college years are the best years of your life.. and they've actually been, so far, the best years of my life. Eventful and uneventful years at the same time. Everything meaningful has happened during those years, and nothing at all as well. They've been years full of experiences, contradictions, excitement, surprise, fear, love, hate, friendship, screw-ups and just pure magic.
However, I do tend to be the kind of person who thinks that what lies ahead is an improvement of what lies beneath. Or something. I always think that what's yet to happen will be better than what already has. I'm not putting down the present or anything.. I sure love the present (even if it's so presently boring right about now).. but, think about it. The future is about the decisions you make right now (in what we all like to call "the present".. or "the presént", in french) regarding how you're gonna live your life. For example (or for examplé, continuing with the french lesson): if today you drink a cup of coffee with only three tablespoons of sugar, and you decide that it isn't sweet enough so you add another one and FINALLY get a great tasting cup of coffee..... tomorrow, you'll add four, because you'll already know that three isn't sweet enough - get what I'm saying? Tomorrow will be a better day - coffeely speaking. And hopefully in every other aspect in your life. Even those that don't need sugar.
But, anyway... I just need to get through this semester, pass all my classes, and I'll be officially working on my thesis. Come January 2008, I will be a thesis-working girl. I'll be the kind of girl who says "Sorry, I can't go to the movies tonight, gotta work on my thesis". Or - the one I know I'm gonna love the most because I'll use it the most - "Mom, I'm wroking on my thesis, I can't clean the room right now".
So, yea, I'm excited.
I also decided that it's about time I make some changes in my life. The thing is, I'm at that point where I, theoretically, understand that I need to make those changes.. but, physically, I'm still procrastinating. However, my brain has decided that I need to work out more, I need to get out more, and I need to live my "young adult life" more. I'm just waiting for my body to follow.
Living my young adult life more means that I should start being a 23 year old. I still feel like a teenager in a lot of aspects. I feel as though every other 23 year old out there in the world has lived many more things than those I've lived. I'm old in human years, but I guess I'm still young. And I shouldn't. I should be way more cynical. Well, maybe not that.. but I should be way more.... 23.
I should go out there and experience life and live it and stop procrastinating and waiting for things to happen to me - I should start making things happen.
Watch out, world. I'm coming for you.
Tomorrow.
Maybe.
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Well, it's been fun updating my LJ (it means Live Journal, by the way). Hopefully all you friends of mine will resurface and leave me a little comment. At least so I can know you're all alive and well. And that you still remember me.
Otherwise I'll drown in pints and pints of ice cream and self pity.
Yes, you have that power over me.
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Well, I think in a way it's safe to say that my life hasn't changed at all since I last wrote in here.
I might be lying.
But it sure feels that way.
It's incredible how much you think you've changed... but, looking back a few months, you really haven't. I still have the same friends, the same environment, the same teachers, the same stress, the same homework (at least it seems that way), the same interests and, still, not enough time.
I guess I should feel good about my life being consistent.
Two girls that I went to school with are pregnant. One of them is married. My first thought is, obviously, that I am too young and too occupied with other things to even begin to consider getting married, let alone having a baby. But, yes, I admit it.. my second thought is "Hmm, when will I get married? Will that ever happen? When will I find my one true love?".
I feel bad just writing it down.
I mean, I hate to be the typical girl who worries about boys, but, honestly, everything else in my life is great... even this semester, as stressed out as I am about it... so it's the only thing I can actually worry about.
I don't even have a crush!!!!! I just haven't met new people since what seems like forever!!!
And this is totally my fault, because I decided to live this secluded, school-based, anti-social life (that all of my friends have chosen as well) where the only time I "go out" is when I go to school. I could say that I don't have time... which, in a way, I don't.... yet I do. But I don't. Because I choose to stay home and either do homework, or worry about the fact that I have homework to do. Just now I'm doing that. I'm sitting here writing an entry and I have homework to do. But instead of doing it, I'm sitting here, writing an entry for a journal I haven't been to in months....
Sometimes I feel like writing. Sometimes I feel like I don't write enough. And sometimes I feel like I don't have time to write.
I'm sorry that I lost touch with all of you net buddies of mine.. but, believe me, if I didn't go to school with them, I would probably lose touch with my friends as well. I'm just that kind of person, I guess.
As horrible as that may sound. And it does sound horrible.
Man, I should change that about myself. I should start calling people, or emailing them out of nowhere. And, trust me, at times, I have opened up hotmail/gmail and felt determined to write a letter.
And then I worry about me having to do homework.
Which is exactly what I'm doing right now.
Meh, it's late.
PS: My new loves: "Grey's Anatomy" and "Miami Ink".
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[19 Jun 2005|12:40am] |
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Take this quiz and see how well you know me! All answers will be screened so you people don't copy from each other.. waaaah!!
Post your answers like this: 1)d, 2)z, etc.
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[28 May 2005|02:14am] |
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Man... I've been free for about two weeks now, but I haven't had a real desire to post here. I mean, I have so many things to say... but I guess I'm still getting over the ordeal that was this semester.. too much stress. And not even sleeping takes care of it (and trust me, I've done a lot of it). I seem to wake up even more tired than I was when I went to bed. Is that even possible, you ask? It is. Ask me. Living proof, is I.
Anyway.. where to start? Probably at me moving. Come January 06, I'm moving. Well, not moving per se.. but I'll be living in another city for 5 days every week. I guess that'd be considered moving away, even though I don't get to take all my stuff with me.. just whatever I'll use for that week. Clothes, computer.. etc. But nothing major, like a dresser or something. I'll be sharing a room, too. Interesting to see how that will work, since in my 20 (almost 21!) years, I've never had to share a room for longer than a day, maybe two. I'm moving with my mom's best friend's daughter... who is kinda like my cousin, since we kinda grew up together. She's nice. She's a model.. and she has a TV show and everything (well, half of a TV show, cause it's 2 hours long and she gets 1 hour.. but, hey, better than nothing). Don't ask me what her TV show is about, I've never seen it. I think they're covering Miss World, since she won Miss World Dominican Republic and then went to China for the big contest last year. I think she was a finalist...? Not sure. But anyway. She's cool. And her mom's awesome, too. She has the nicest house (well, pent house) I've ever seen. And the house I'll get to live in is pretty rad! It has trees and stuff.. nice garden. Huge. Well, kinda.. I live in an apartment, so even a square inch of grass is a big deal to me.
I'm still going to study Graphic Design. Why the change of college, you say? Well, in mine, we have to do everything by hand.. and the major is actually Advertising, with Graphic Design as a minor. In my new college, GD will be the major... so it's, well, better. And, we get to do everything by computer. Wee!
Err... what else? Oh. My birthday's coming up soon.. June 9th... I'm gonna be 21, dude. It's supposed to be a great number for most people.. big party and everything... but, I don't know.. doesn't seem like such a big deal to me. I'll probably have my friends over for tacos.. probably being the key word here, since they all signed up for the Summer Semester at school and they're there for 5 hours, Mon-Fri.. and I didn't. Seems like a waste of time, since I'm moving anyways, and switching schools.. and only one subject is keeping me from leaving in August, which I'll take next semester (wasn't offered in Summer Sem.), so why would I sign up? More stress?? Nah. And, yes, all of my friends signed up... all 4 of them. Well, actually, one of them didn't.. but how's it a party when there's only two of us? I'll probably have it.. if I do... on the weekend. Since June 9th is a Thursday, I believe.
I know, I'm rambling.. but it's 2AM.. and I want to go to bed... and the only thing keeping me here is me wanting to update my journal.
Other than all of the mentioned above........ there's nothing more to say.. at least, nothing comes to mind at the time. So I guess, for now, I'll just go. SLEEP.
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From ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) opticalbluetime:
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[27 Mar 2005|06:04pm] |
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I love my LJ layout! I finally figured everything out. Tis way easier than I thought. So, if anyone wants help with theirs, let me know.
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[22 Mar 2005|10:14pm] |
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This movie touched me like you have no idea.
I invite anyone who hasn't seen it to do so.. and maybe, even if you don't accept communism/socialism, you'll begin to understand the true meaning of living a communist life. Because, let's face it.. it's not an "economic system", it's a way of life. It has to be deep within your heart.. that feeling of justice, of human rights, of social awareness.. of love..
I can't say I'm a communist because I live in a capitalist country like most of you.. and you can't say you're a pianist if you don't play the piano. However, I learned I could be considered a communist without even knowing what it was, theoretically. I was told at 12 that my beliefs, my ideals, my opinions on justice and fairness and equality were communist ideals by a teacher that meant it as an insult; but after consulting it with my mom, it turned into a compliment. Communism isn't about taking away.. it's about giving. In communism, "everybody has", instead of the way we live, where "everybody lacks".
So, please, watch that movie.. as I said, just to understand where I'm coming from. Everything you see in that movie (as far as the social injustices go), I'm living in my country. So please take your blindfold off. And watch this movie with your eyes and heart wide open, and your mouth and prejudice wide shut. Maybe it'll help you pay more attention to what is going on around you.
I don't know... this is not something I can explain... because you can't explain the way you feel.
"Let the world change you, and you can change the world".
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[16 Mar 2005|10:48pm] |
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If I don't post it here, I'll forget about it sooner than later.. so, here it is,
( a sketch I might never finish )
I don't know how to color it still. I might copy it and trace it with a marker (one of those permanent Faber-Castell felt-tip black thingers) and then watercolor it. Or pencil-shade it. Or color-pencil it. Or CGI it (I think CGI stands for Computer Generated Image... if not, that's what CGI means in my world, dig?). Or... I don't know.
Or maybe I'll just forget about it, as I've forgotten most of my sketches that had nothing to do with homework.
Bummer.
PS: ImighthavecopiedRingo'snosebecauseIloveloveloveTHERINGO.
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PS: I want to make a layout for my LJ. So I'm off to make a header (after I'm done with homework). So, if this looks weird for a while, it means I'm working on it. However, if this looks just the same, it means I've failed. Boo-hoo.
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I love my new icon. Mainly because I love Mario. But also because it's pretty. The icon. And Mario. If I could vote, I'd vote for Mario. Is voting free? If so, vote for Mario. Do it for me. And Mario. And my icon. And because Mario looks like Wilmer Valderrama should.
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Definitely busy. But with no desire to do anything.
Bummer.
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[01 Mar 2005|12:31pm] |
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I'm starting with "Napoleon Dynamite". What's the deal with that movie? I rented it, watched it with my brothers.. and.. meh. After a while, it was just boring. I liked some parts of the movie, but they weren't even that good.. I just don't understand the hype.
Same with "Garden State". I mean, they were both 'ok' movies.. but nothing I'd rent again or die for. I do admit that "Garden State" was a bit more entertaining, but only because I love Zach Braff. Or whatever his name is. You know, that Scrubs guy.
"A Clockwork Orange", which I saw like three days ago, was... strange. I didn't like it. Not 'cause it was strange, but 'cause this dude made it up to be such a great movie, and then it ended up being.. meh. Methinks the book is way better, and I haven't even read it.. however, I did enjoy the psychological aspect of the plot. You know, how Alex is put through a procedure who's name I only know in spanish.. and all that. I guess put in its context and time, I can see why it was thought to be a "great" movie. However... it didn't really do much for me.
Anyway... my mom wanted to watch my DVD of "Life as a house", and lemme tell ya... that Hayden shower scene kills me everytime. There's just something about that Christensen dude.. I haven't seen "Star Wars", and I'm not planning on, but at least in that freaking movie he looks... hot. There, I said it. Hayden Christensen looks hot as a gothic punk. And I loved every minute of him. The movie was... well, it was sweet. I cried. Etc.
Now let's see... "Memento" is and forever will be one of my favorite movies, if not my only favorite movie. You know, if I had to pick favorites and all. I've also enjoyed all of the Harry Potter movies, and I don't know if that's because I've adored the books. As far as books-turned-movies, I think "The Princess' Diaries" was entertaining but it could've been better.. the dude who played Michael was a bad actor, man.. totally unbelievable in that role. "Teenage Confessions of a Drama Queen" sucked as well, even when the book somewhat entertained me.
Now, as far as books-they-should-turn-into-movies, lemme tell ya.. that Meg Cabot woman writes great books! I'd die to see "All American Girl" or "The Mediator" series be turned into a movie.. even the "1-800-WHERE-R-YOU" series. Or "The Wessex Papers" series, by Daniel Parker.. and "The Black Book" by Jonah Black.. and definitely Francine Pascal's "Fearless" series... I read Rachel Leigh Cook was gonna do it for some network (Fox, probably.. or UPN) but as an adult and FBI agent.. yea, no.. gimme teenage Sam. Those are all great series that could be turned into great teenage series thingers, but alas, they don't. Man, there are no more cool teenage shows on TV anymore.. only "The OC" and "Jack and Bobby".
I'm not a teenager anymore, but I was when I read those books, and I occasionaly pick one up and re-read it. Yea, they're not deep and existentialist or anything, but they're entertaining, and I like entertainment.
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I'm just too bored to care.
01; Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02; I will then tell you what song/artist reminds me of you.
03; Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
04; Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05; Put this in your journal.
Sheila (opticalbluetime), I'm sorry I've fallen behind on all our threads and emails.. I promise I'll catch up sooner than later. It's just that most of the time I've been online have been too crazy to reply to our gazillion conversations knowing what we're talking about... even if sometimes we both can't remember.. by the way, I'll be sending your package sometime this week!! FINALLY, I know.. but.. you know.. :p).
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RINGO'S EROTIC DANCER GRANDDAUGHTER
Former BEATLE RINGO STARR's teenage granddaughter is working as an erotic dancer, touring nightclubs around Britain.
TATIA STARKEY is the 19-year-old daughter of Starr's drummer son ZAK STARKEY
She trained to be a dancer, in a bid to follow her father and grandfather into showbiz - and ended up part of sexy dance troupe NARNI SHAKERS, under her stage name TASHER.
A website advertising the troupe's services, describes Tatia: "Tasher is an eye-catcher. Her moves are sexy, slick and hard to miss.
"Tasher may be young but don't let this fool you when she's on stage.
"Tasher is definitely one to watch for and we are glad she is shaking her narni with us."
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Wtf?! Hahaha.. poor Rings. When I read that, I immediately thought of this pic:
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Yea, same as the awards now. But for my icons. Organizing this one was HELL.
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